Coming Home to Myself at Last
Blog #111
Mano writes:
Barbara missed writing the July blog, and is resisting writing this blog for August. She does not want to turn to Mary Jane for support, so I, Mano, am stepping forth to take over writing the blog. Since I want you to know what is going on in Barbara’s and my life, I will take over and write to you. It is really quite exciting to talk to you directly rather than through Barbara.
On June 1, Barbara was taken to emergency hospital and kept for a couple of days. She returned home for one week, contracted Covid, then was sent back to the hospital for a couple more days. This time coming home she remained floating above or below consciousness for a few days. Between the hospital stays, Donna, Barbara’s daughter, came to care for her and will remain until things get settled.
Still in a wheelchair and semi-conscious, the big move we all have been waiting for was made, returning her to her new home on July 2, almost two years after the SCZ fire ate our precious Amity Cottage.
I Mano, would modestly like to admit that it was Barbara’s Council supporting Peter, Barbara’s son, and Karl, the contractor for the new house, that played a large part in the miracle Barbara is experiencing. 900 houses burned in the fire. A year later only 90 permits to rebuild had been approve by Santa Cruz county officials. Now another year later, the report is that only 10 families are actually living in their newly constructed homes. Barbara is one of that number.
It looks like I have intrigued Barbara’s interest and she wants to tell the next part of her story.
Barbara writes:
I was home from my second trip to the hospital for three days when I realized I had not felt the presence of my Council or the elemental workers that live and interact with me each day. I asked what was going on but no one answered. For the first time in all of the years we have been in relationship I was not able to see any of my Council. My mind was groggy and I slept a lot. Things around me got very active as the move to the mountain into my new home, Amity Lodge, was orchestrated by my loving family and friends.
The first week after moving into my home, while lying on the couch I saw 5 gnomes on the couch beside and on top of me. I was aware of Mano’s Presence. He explained to me what had happened since I first went to the hospital.
I was so sick that I was not in my body. The elementals lived under me to keep me alive and above Consciousness. After five days in my new home, I was back in my body and the elementals were released from their ‘duty’ to keep me floating in a level of consciousness and keep me from sinking down into unconsciousness.
All through this period of hovering between what felt like life and death I held a deep desire to be alive to celebrate my 95th birthday on August 9. For some reason that birthday feels like a new beginning and a whole new celebration of life would open up for me if I could just live to pass into the 95th year of life.
As I write all of that it sounds like fantasy. All I can say, from the time I entered the hospital my life has felt like fantasy and I am glad that today, August 1, two months later, I feel like I am ‘coming home to myself at last.’
So glad you are feeling better and are back in your home place. May you have a wonderful, life-filled 95th birthday next week!
Dear Barbara, thank you for sharing your recent adventures. I am so deeply happy that you are back on the land again. The land needs you and you need all those present there. It’s a win-win for all. I hope to see you sometime. I always think of you fondly and with admiration, 🌺🙏🏻🥰Freesia
Happy Birthday, Barbara! Truly a birth day!
Hi, Barbara. Welcome back to your new home. Stay out of those hospitals ! We still miss the monthly peace dances of years ago. Love your and Mano’s blog. Happy 95th ! Love, Paul and Eva Fewel.
My dearest Barbara,
As I approach my 75th birthday, I am finding my heart and mind in a similar situation to yours. Some might call it confusion. It is disconcerting but I am very grateful for my journey and for the loving support people in my life. I honor and celebrate the mystery ahead… For you, for me, for all of us… Thanksgiving for this incredible journey!
Always with love for you,
Marsha Johnson
So much love and healing for you. Dear Barbara. We are all grateful you are returning to .3d, moving on into 5 d. Happy 95 thru the Lions gate and into new delights
Thanks to all the beings that have brought you safely through this. I am joyful to know you are back on your beloved land. What a wonderful way to turn 95. Happy Birthday, dear Barbara — we celebrate you!
My dear Barbara,
You continue to be an inspiration to me, and I celebrate your new home with all the Council of
Gnomes by your side. Blessings as each day unfolds ~
Marsha Johnson
This is great news. All the elementals are loving and surrounding you as they always do. Happy for your new home and you to be resting and thriving in the mountains again with the trees.
Yay Barbara!!! And a huge Thankyou to Mano and all the Gnomes for holding you!! And so much gratitude to your dear Donna!
And,Well! The Miracle of your new home!! (Ok, special thanks to Mano on the miracle side of things) I witnessed Peter, and Karl & Co. in action!
Thankyou so so much for writing, sharing the fantasy, and this truly remarkable homecoming!! I see ice cream in our future! All my love has been with you, Susan
Hello Barbara!
I am so happy to hear you are doing better!
We are all waiting to see your new home!
I send my gratitude to Mano and all the Elementals that took good care of you!
I wish you a happy birthday!
Hugs and love,
Liz
Glory to God
Welcome back home.
May God strengthen you and heal you in Jesus Name Amen.
Happy 95th Birthday.
God bless you
So happy to read these words from Mano and you, Barbara. I am wishing you a most joyful and magical RE-BIRTHDAY on August 9! With love and gratitude and appreciation from Lorna
Happy Birthday Barbara❣️ I am pleased to hear that you have returned to your rebuilt home. I am sure that it will aid in your complete recovery, and joyful celebration of 95 years of life💞 Many blessings to you for the work you do, and deep appreciation for Mano and the Council for their love and support💖
I am honored to have a copy of your Divine Feminine painting in a special place in my home. Looking at it brings me great Joy💗
Love, and Light, Wendy
Dear Barbara, I am grateful to read this account through You and Mano. I am without doubt that Your elemental Friends were holding You up so well during Your ‘floating time’. Amity Lodge is quite a spectacular creation whose Spirit seems to have always lived there; like the temple, itself, was just waiting for its physical creation. Like the temple, itself, was waiting for this right time and this version of You. Happy 95th year in Your beautiful living! Grateful for You and the magyc You live with.
My dear Barbara,
My heart rejoices with the news you are in your wonderful home and will celebrate your 95th birthday. All those years sitting next to you in Carolyn’s writing group, left a deep impression in my heart. I hope to visit you soon.
Carolyn