Dithering Without Direction

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REMINDER from Mano:

Everyone has a Divine Plan. Everyone has a guardian angel and Spiritual Council. We carefully watch over you from a distance and move in close when we see you are ready to take action.

REMARKS from Barbara:

Something shifted when I turned 90. I now know I am an artist. I know my life is about serving Mother Earth by relating with the elemental and angelic world of nature. At last…no doubts. What a gift. What a relief.

REMEMBERING Mary Jane:

If Mary Jane had not been willing to write our blog, I never would have had the courage and confidence to do it on my own.  Thank you, dear Mary Jane.

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Dithering Without Direction

Blog #87

Mano has recently guided me to find and read two writings pondering about my art, my life, and my resistance to painting. I shared “My Art as Healer and Revealer” with you last month, and today I share the second writing. 

These two articles were originally written in 2011, preparing me for Mano’s request in 2012 to create a blog.  When he saw my resistance, he suggested I ask Mary Jane to write the blog. The first blog was launched in 2013.

2011:

I am in the studio, ‘dithering’ without direction. Once again pondering, who am I? What is my life about? I have done this many times. The things I have already established are: I am an artist; my life and art are in service to Mother Earth.

I have barely kept my artist alive since Jim’s death seven years ago. I have completed my DVD, “Healing Burned Woman.” The DVD is full of my artwork. The work of My Artist. If I had not painted, I would not have had illustrations for the story I had to tell. 

I know I am on the planet to serve Mother Earth, her elemental and angelic kingdoms, and to assist bringing in the 7th Golden Age. My Art is my healing mode, for the earth and for myself.  It is my way of transforming energies, my way to bring in the Sacred Fire in color and form. I am to create patterns of healing energies for the angels and nature spirits to pick up and use. The angels inspire me, they direct the relationship of color and shape to create a new form and build new patterns out in the physical world.

I am suddenly aware of the Master Gnomes sitting in front of me. I listen carefully and write into the computer the words I hear, “The Work you are doing is OUR WORK to guide your knowing, action, and living.”

Thank you for coming. I didn’t realize these meandering thoughts were going to end up ONCE AGAIN unraveling who I AM and what I am about.

Back to being The Artist. My little drawings, which Mano tells me are my most important work, are named “Transformative Drawings” for situations happening in the world. Recently they have been named for Mother Earth. I have not done those little drawings for 6 weeks at least. I didn’t have a little drawing pad, and didn’t go to store to buy one. This week I bought two and then found I had one empty and one almost empty. So, once again I have been ignoring my calling. 

The Master spoke: It is not a matter of time, it is ATTITUDE, not even consciousness, for your mind and heart to know this truth. I simply need to state the truth and put your attention on it, then you can change and make a new choice. We have brought you bits and pieces of information for many, many years, even before you came to the mountain. Your master gnome Mano has been watching over you, grooming you, to see if you will wake up to your promise and calling that you made on entering the earth. Your wake up has come through painting. 

You have had a specialized training on a specialized type of work. You have been trained by Mother Nature, through your feelings and intuition. You are exceptional, exemplary in every way. Stand up and be counted for actually doing the work you have been given in service to Mother Earth.

Am I painting FOR Mother Earth or is Mother Earth painting through me? 

You are painting FOR HER, under the guidance of the Master Gnomes who know exactly what she needs to see, feel, and absorb. It goes into the atmosphere, it is viewed by the elementals, the etheric double is taken out and spread around where needed.

Your paintings are for the healing of the planet, Gaia, Mother Earth.

The energies of the colors are guided by a group of earth angels and the form is guided by elemental beings, who then distribute the etheric energies where they are needed.

I, Mano, will speak now: We have been through this, many times in the past Barbara. And now it comes to this day when we do not want to have to go back to square one ever again. Today was not actually back to square one. But it is material we have thought was clear within you.  Sit in the violet flame to remove the dross collected by your doubt.  What has happened in the past, we have given you clear information and you understood, yet the old pattern of not knowing, not believing, has not been cleared and comes back wanting to be reassured again and again, ‘Is this really true? Is that really me?’

Well my dear, let me be the first to say it is not the ‘me’ within your surface mind that does the work. It is the I AM of your higher self that does the work. This is what we want you to move into: a new way of being, a new form to work within.

You can continue to maintain your humility and the low key that you are comfortable in when there is no need to show up. And when it is time to show up. We want you there in all of your grace and beauty. The artist.This is to take clear form when you introduce your DVD, Healing Burned Woman, to friends and groups. We have created a wonderful product, professional in every way. Stand up and be proud. Proud of us who have guided you, opened and closed doors. You are not your own. You were bought with a price, of our time, love, patience, guidance, gifting you with teachers, the amphitheater, your studio. Everything you have needed has been brought to you. We have done our part. We count on you to do yours.